song that iam making then throw it away--joke34x(lapa na human ang endless question)

many thougts came into my mind
as if iam counting the stars in the sky tonight
what if iam the one holding your hand right now
so i can start my tomorrow without a ending life
perfect moment i've just carelessly wasted
and now i just dreaming that you are here
when will you be near

there I am all alone
sitting in the alley from day to dawn
I hear a voice calling your name is this the feeling they called pain